Well, I haven't written a journal for a pretty long time. I am not really the type of person who records down what happens everyday.
Yesterday I went horse back riding after a two-years break. I started horse-back riding in third grade. I remember I was a really tiny girl and the coach would always have to carry me on the horse because I can't reach it by myself. Horse back riding has always been an activity I love. Because when I am on the horse it seems like the world around me changes. I am no longer the useless little girl who can't do anything. Because being good at riding horses doesn't require a certain age or a certain height. I remember my couch would always encourage me and say that I am the most talented girl he has ever met, whether he was lying or he was being honest, I really didn't care. I just know riding horses make me happy. With the wind blowing through my hair I can clear my thought and think of anything. And for an hour I finally didn't have anyone telling me what to do. I was the one in control.
I also remember in 8th grade my coach told my mom that I can start to practice jumping obstacles. I still remember the terrified and hesitant face my mom had. I told my couch that I was totally into it. He smiled and patted my head and said, "Of course you are." So I started and I went to competitions and got awards that I have always dreamed of. I remember people would always point at me and say, "Are you sure that little girl won't fall down?" or "Are you sure that little girl can compete in this obstacle course?" or comments like, "This isn't a game you know. It is very dangerous." But I really didn't let those questions or comments stop me from doing what I love.
However, in my sophomore year, I stopped horse-back riding. Whether it was because I was just way too busy for it or it was because I got too scared in a competition I just attended where I almost fell down, I don't know or I don't remember. I just know it was a decision I regret even until now.
So I decided that I will go back and do what I love. As people always say, "If it is important to you, you will always find a way. If it is not, you will find an excuse." So after two years, I am finally back. And this time I won't let anything or anyone stop me again.
